I live a dream.
It felt wonderful to write in my notebook yesterday for a change. Make’s things go significantly slower with script.
After we were done with our mentorship this morning we were on our way off on our assignment; to experience some wonder.
My intuition led me to walk barefoot outside in the grass and pavement after about 5 minutes I came back inside. I thought that was it, but no.
I was on my way upstairs when Anita was like, Want to go on an adventure with me?
Immediate YES! I was switching my shoes and we were off, of course my intuition had me switch my shoes. I had no idea what was going to happen next.
Anita and I started to walk down the main road for a minute before we started to explore, before we knew it we were hiking up the mountain and we had gotten to the top. The views were amazing. A significant point for me was that going up the mountain I saw too many prickly tree’s I didn’t want to go through as I was holding and swatting them away with my stick Anita gave me when she announce me the leader of this hike adventure, of course she did I have an internal gps system built in my head.
I even told Anita, if we decided to stay up there and not leave, nobody would find us, at all. I did some video edits today and hula hooped with Mandy. I did some stretching and eating and took some content. I now know my life is like this because I had created this exact scenario.
Living in a cottage in the country side of Greece where I feel like cinderella, my friend’s from different countries are staying with me, I meet a new polish woman Barbara who I can speak Polish with, so I can still have my experience of wanting to speak Polish with someone still, despite not staying in Poland, but “accidentally”, having a day long connecting flight there right before Greece. “How Bizarre?”, as Ana Carolina would say because nothing is when living in Phase 2.
Andra had given me an assignment for tomorrow that gives me a lot of feelings and I perfectly understand now why he told me that I need to sit with the feelings of being dependent of other people. With the assignment tomorrow, it’s a way of showing up for myself and this is why the feelings come in, a sense of responsibility that we all avoid tricking towards me. Now I have to hold myself accountable to show up, and be there at the time I said? WOW, as opposed to not having that and have someone else dictate and run my show, right now with the feelings I have not yet felt through I am stooped and hungry. Food being one of my coping mechanisms that had come through as my sense of avoiding myself.